Calls

When i was in my univ's library trying to complete the task which had deadline at 5.30pm 2days ago. I's even to lazy to start that. I was searching some life quote's that i taught could cheer me up to not always give up. Then I found this quote..

What i taught these days really confusing me. I always think what kind that I really want to do in life. I think if i don't like accounting (my majoring now), i have to change all, i have to manage well what should i do. BUT to determine ONE i can't. Too huge that i think, so I can't think where major I'm more. Ya, AFRAID is being of the people's weakness. Even i think it's not weakness, but mindset. If we set the mind to fail, so failed is the only one thing that we get. I'm always good in theory  

Since one year as kindergarten teacher, i just found out that i had my interest in children. Not only that, but my heart full of burden about what happening now in the generation. I think about how children can grow without their faith to the Creator, the children who lack of knowledge, poorness, backwardness and many things. I just found out too that i really like when i communicate with my students, waiting for their long-not always true- story, their expression, how they welcome me when i come in the morning to the school and hug me. Then to continue what i found out about myself, many thought passed the mind, many considerations, many counting about plus and minus. Should I? What will I do? Where do I start?

In the other way, I found out too my passion about how I have to expand the ministry especially for teenagers and youth. I browsed many things about how to do approaching to reach the youth . generation. Andddddd too, I remembered when City Harvest Church #batammission2014 gave challenge about whoever that wanted to answer the call and did the ministry and to expand the field of the church, i directly asnwered that calling. Even many disappoinments happen, i really didn't want to give up. I felt like i have a vision for a big breakthrough if i wanted to make stronger my heart and closed my ear for whatever people's would roarzz me.  

I've already discussed with some trusted and who understand about 'this'. And it's strengthen my soul that it's okay for me to go ahead with what i really like and do in life. I'm still counting my time till i finish my bachelor (a year left) and i really will decide after that. I think a fear is needed sometimes so I can always remember that i'm usual human and even cannot decide what's the best for myself, so I have to surround everything plan and desire to the Only One that can make wholely. I really do believe, what i fully trust and surround the thing into His hind, He will make a way for me and open all the ways. I have no opsi except believing. For you guys, that be in this condition, thought, or confusing a lot, maybe this can suggest you better :)

BHCF 2014

Attended the first event in Batam was Batam Holi Color Festival 2014 (June 22, 2014). Batam is the 2nd city where this event was held after Jakarta. When I was searching where this event firstly came from, I found that it was from India. Actually this event related with the religion tradition in India which most of people is Hindu. But when adopted by other, it' just become event for fun.
Came with my #highschoolneverends mates after gathered in Cheno's house first, include mba Yan, Teo Fenny, and new friend, Christin. So, BHCF 2014 was located in Mega Wisata Ocarina, Batam

When still in clean condition

I saw many people that attended this event. From my perspective, some of people wanna to really make fun, some of people just curious with what kind of this event.

Met our MUA-friend, Sele

Met our senior, Rapper Batamhood, Jacob

Met our Amel, still so clean

Crazy buddies

Met our k-pop fans, Derry

Lovesss!

New Friend, Rini

New Friend, Christin

Genk ko Raykal's car

When the music played on

Lovesssss!

Look like little reunion of High School

Just met some of univ's friend, COG Familu, high school's mates, junior and senior, new friend that noticed me as the girl who lucky 200k Rupiah hahahahah it's Sumon Tan, Cheno's fellas.

Totally fun for me, not because the event, cos the time that I spent with..

Not Lil Anymore

I remember the past. At that time I prayed to God while stroking my mom's tum. Praying sincerely as the child prayed asking something. I did everyday. One thing I asked. I wanted brother so much. I think that the first time when I really had faith in God. Even doctor said it's impossible and opposite with what we expected, but when God intervented, everything would happened according His will.

Yay! June 22 my brother turned 14! I couldn't describe how I am happy to see him grow up and now being not-my-little-brother-anymore. So in the morning, sisters had planning to make him surprise with his church friends in Teen Service. But because too sudden, we changed the plan. We asked our mom to cook something while we messaged some of his church close friend to giving surprise. 

Around 7pm, i arrived home lately after buying a cake. He had already known that we gonna made 'thankgiving'. After some friends gathered, my mom opened with a prayed. Next, i was talking about how we struggled about him since he still inside tum. Continue by impression and testimony from some his friends like Rachel, Putra, Abby, Joji, and Aldo. My boy too sang a song as his thankgiving to God. We couldn't too loud at that time that made us bridled. My neighbor had an event at the same time. We moved inside the house and just let He made a wish

One of my sister still hadn't back at that time while my dad was so in his tiredness. But had so much fun, some gifts and messages were really got attention from him. How i wish he grow better, full of love, God and people and make a good role in his way, Amen

All i wish Happy Always and God bless you!